wondering :)

salam

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due to the cancellation of my sustainable class,i wanna spend my time writing something here :) i don't know why but lately i am focusing more on what i wanna be and way to improve myself much more better which i found that will be definitely good to me.maybe my adrenaline boost up quickly now as i'll be 23 soon.oh yeah,you are getting older babe;p i am wondering if this is the right time for me to make something different in life,i mean be more matured in handling things around me.you know what,we are seldomly think too much on having or being something better in life which yet we might regret for not did that before. i was thinking about this last few days.it was like something is hindering my move for the next step.i know it come from me instead.therefore i try to motivate myself as much as i could.

life will not give us something valuable if we just wait and hope.hello,we can't be defencelessly towards our destiny.we should make a change or else we will just be the same like those who never try.that makes a different between who work hard and who don't.i should work hard from now on.i'm not the one who inherited the blood-princess or even half of them.i am an ordinary girl.by that reason i need to put an extra ordinary efforts to change this life.life will not promise me sweet things or even an enchanted fairytales story but yet i'll do that.i promise i'll try my best dear lovely mak and super ayah.i will! :')

for the time being i may keep on torturing myself how come some several people were so lucky,having what they want just right before their eyes and bla bla bla.wait,i'll prove this life also lucky for me.what i need now just an extra pack of gunny sacks as my spirit boost up real lots.i want to keep them in.i won't let even a bit leaked out!

let the warm tea settle me down.nope i mean calm me down;p

till then,meet you soon dear diary.cheerio :)